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i remember the first time that i met him, the boy of my affections as of late.

let me tell you, i did not like him.

and then, we started talking more. lunch breaks and the like.

did not like him.

hanging out and smooching up a storm.

really did not like him.

then along came the ex-boy of my affections to rock my world and all that i knew to be true.

so i kept the boy i did not like around. as a buffer between me and the ex.

then we started going on real-life dates and having real-life talks. guys, i shaved his back.

still... didn't like him.

and then, one day, i found out that he was dating someone else. (why does this keep happening, i mean really! a girl can only handle so much infidelity!)

and then, i liked him. nay, loved him! i wanted him around me every second, to have and to hold and to make children with! heaven help me, CHILDREN!

and now i feel like i'm in some fight for my life for the man that i love, the father of my children, and my question to you is--

do i only want him because he isn't mine?



i wonder.