and the award for trashiest new years house party goes to...

ME!!!!!!!!!!

and it really was just the trashiest thing you ever did see.

like, i even had to break up a fight at one point.

but i feel like a really trashy house party is a requisite for your first real place. i'm glad i got it out of the way early, while i don't really have any furniture to break.

AND-- it was so much fun!

i've always hated new years, and had really low expectations for it. i figured things wouldn't be any different this year when my plans fell through early in the day. but there seemed to be a lot of people who didn't have any specific plans who just wanted to get really, really drunk, and somehow we all found each other.

and we had a freaking blast.

i kept meaning to take pictures (because i never take pictures anymore) but i was having far too much fun to worry about it. also, i lost my phone ten hundred million times. probably a good thing, too, because i only inappropriately texted about 5 people. i almost took a picture of the aftermath, but i don't want you to judge me.

anyway, i didn't make any resolutions or anything. i don't want to. because here's the thing-- i'm already working super hard toward self improvement and personal growth and all of that. i already know the things i want and need to do in order to get to a place where i want and need to be.

and things are really coming together for me. i have a car that i LOVE that doesn't require very expensive maintenance every two and a half seconds; i have my very own apartment that's just humble and (for now) very empty, but it's my very own; i'm getting back into school; i have a full time job with full health and dental insurance; i have-albeit very, very few-some really good friends.

i have a great feeling about 2012.

and you know?

i think it has a great feeling about me.