i don't have many recent photos of myself.
partly because i think self portraits are really lame. like "i have no self respect, so i take a million pictures of myself so i get one worthy of displaying publicly, where other people can tell me i'm awesome."
they just look vain or stupid. (see above.)
but the other reason i don't have recent pictures of myself is because i haven't had the desire to see myself. i've been, i don't know, ashamed, i guess.
but that's silly, because i know i'm awesome.
and so i'm beginning a project.
post one new picture of myself every week, vanity and stupidity be damned!
i'm forcing myself to do this so i can finally settle in to the comfort i've developed in my own skin. i've realized i'm not perfect, but i am great. and that's enough to push me toward healthy (!!!) means of slow perfection, enjoying the time i have with each flaw before affectionately kissing it goodbye.
yes, forcing myself to take and post self portraits may seem like a vain, inefficient use of my time, but i think it's going to be the last push i need to accept who i am with love and compassion.
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