chapter two

i'm nearing the end of the perks of being a wallflower.

it makes me feel sad because it talks a lot about the rocky horror picture show and once my boyfriend told me that it was his new favorite movie and he had watched it with his new friend who i found out much later was his second girlfriend which was stupid because i was his first girlfriend and had been so for almost a year.

in hindsight, i should have been more suspicious about him watching movies alone with girls who were new friends.


but the book talks about great music and wonderful literature, so it also makes me feel happy.



it also talks about rape and homosexuality and suicide and abuse and other things that make me feel uncomfortable, sometimes because i can't relate and other times because i can.




this is all to say that i really like the book, and it makes me want to hole up and never talk to anyone because i feel sad and happy and uncomfortable; and it also makes me want to answer yes or no questions with just a "yes" or "no" and not provide so many unsolicited details, and also to ask other people more questions about themselves.





also, i've always wanted to write a book and my teachers and extended family have always told me to write a book, and even before i started wallflower, i've been thinking a lot about writing a book again lately. i mean, what else have i got to do with my time?


then again, i have nothing to write about. obviously.