saeglópur

reposted from my old blog. originally posted on 08/03/2009


sometimes i experience an interesting sensation
where i don't realize that i have gotten from one physical point
to another.

be it when driving, walking, riding on a train...
sometimes, i cannot remember the past ten, twenty, forty-five seconds of my journey.

i think it is the literal meaning of "losing yourself."
i become so enthralled with my thoughts, feelings, problems, excitment, that i lose track of my physical self for a while.

and, when i come to, i am nearly shocked that i am living.
for, how could i possibly have not run into any trouble
when i'm not paying any mind to myself?
clearly some outside power has guided me
through these times of momentary lapses of consciousness.

i experienced this for a moment today.
i couldn't, for the life of me, recall how i went from point a to point b.

and i realized that this has happened to me in life.
i can't recall how i got from point a, where ever that may be,
to point b, where ever i am now.

and how i've survived, i have no clue.
but survive i have,
and i will continue to survive so long as some outer source
see's fit that i do so.

i just hope i don't spend so much time
dreaming and thinking and feeling
that i lose my physical self altogether.
because i rather enjoy experiencing the little things in life
that my body allows me to experience.


that's enough thinking for today.
i'm going to bed.